A rant about art (and also showing off a little bit)
Drawing is one of those things that never clicked for me. It takes time, effort, and dedication to suffering to begin to gain the skill, and those are three things that are tremendously incompatible with my brain chemistry. The abstract nature of art is difficult for me to wrap my head around.
“You just have to practice every day until you get it.”
Practice what? Until I get what?? Practice lines and circles until I’m… better, I guess.
That doesn’t make sense to me. I suppose that logically I know that’s the way to go about it, but emotionally I don’t have it in me to draw circles for hours every day for a month even if I wanted to try (incredible video by belartsy, by the way. I actually ended up wanting to try the method again after watching it, but… well… here I am after all).
I have always thought of drawing and painting as the ultimate medium to express oneself, and so the ultimate goal. I am someone that has a difficult time imagining an object as 3d in my mind, so to be able to turn an idea into an image is tremendously impressive. I want to do that as well. I want to have that refined instinct when it comes to colors and brushes and angles.
I have a bone to pick with artists that are good at what they do. Not because I’m envious of their skill, I’m far too old for that and I worked through that way of thinking many years ago, but because a lot of the time they don’t have any practical advice other than, “Just keep drawing!”
I know they probably mean well and are 100% serious, but I cannot make it click :(
I’m not really sure what the helpful answer for someone like me is in this case. Zero experience, no classes under my belt, and terrible mental stamina when it comes to things I have no skill in. But don’t get me wrong! It doesn’t mean I haven’t tried a little tiny bit! Occasionally the spirit of the arts takes over me and I end up making some things I’m quite proud of. As you can see in my newly put together art page :D
I think I’m much more capable when it comes to more physical? forms of art? Most of the pieces I uploaded are digital, but I hope you understand what I mean. Despite having such issues with creating art from scratch, I really enjoy dismantling and rebuilding. Scrapbook moms really had a good thing going. I would love to get back into the swing of things, even if my set up changed (my computer shat the bed. bye bye photoshop), I want to be able to look at it as a creative challenge.
I haven’t been feeling terribly inspired, but who knows… maybe all the pollen in the air will stir something within me.